I know I have been MIA for awhile now. It has been an extremely difficult summer for me and I feel I am finally ready to share it with you guys.
Life has been throwing me some massive curveballs and it’s been hard to navigate them all. With all the stress bearing down on my shoulders it is hard for me not to go back to my “safe place.” There have been many temptations and situations that have me wondering if the path I have taken is the correct one.
For many months now I believed I had found peace within myself. The recent stressors have had me second guessing and wondering if I had even found peace at all or if I was repressing some serious thoughts and emotions. I think that it will be a long time before I have reached peace with myself and my body. My self love has definitely grown and still continues to grow but I feel I will always have negative thoughts and emotions about myself. I see a light at the end of the tunnel and I will continue to push until I reach self acceptance and patience.
Although life is taking me on quite the detour, I have had some great successes this summer. I am pushing myself to feel and be in what I would consider to be some very uncomfortable situations. I have slowly started to work out again and I haven’t felt any pressure to start excessively working out.
I am very proud of how far I have come, but I now know that this journey is going to be a long one. I will continue to celebrate the big and little successes. I will put all my positive energy into being mindful and grateful for this life I was given.
Thank you for following me in this crazy journey. I wish you all peace and happiness.